Since you came inside my life, you've given me the best in you everyday and night. I felt my happiness in you make me wanna ride to the end of any valley. Then you give me piece of mind. You bring me comfort to my soul, give me such a high. No I will never let you know, make me wanna fly to the top of every rainbow. ~I love you more everyday. You show me love in every way. There's nothing left for me to say, but I love you~ So promise me you'll never leave. You never say this is the end, you'll spend your life with me. You'll be my husband and my best friend, raise a family, something we both can treasure. So won't you come and fly with me, forever you and me. That's how it's supposed to be, I love you only. I won't stop loving you, and I won't stop kissing you. You're the reason why I smile. And I won't stop holding you, and I won't stop loving you.
Let me be yours tonight, hold me in your arms all night. Leave the world far behind, take me high to your paradise. ~You are the one I love, you are the one I need. You're the only one in my heart, baby come save me~ The touch of your hand can take all my pain away. And the sound of your voice heals my soul, forever I'm yours. Baby I love you, and I can't live without you. I can't imagine how life would be without you. You make my world complete, you mean the world to me. Come and save me cuz I want to be your love.
I would give up everything before I'd separate myself from you. After so much suffering, I finally found unvarnished truth. I was all by myself for the longest time, so cold inside. And the hurt from the heartache would not subside. I felt like dying until you saved my life. ~Thank God I found you. I was lost without you. My every wish and every dream somehow became reality when you bought the sunlight, completed my whole life. I'm overwhelmed with gratitude cuz baby I'm so thankful I found you~ I would give you everything. There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do to insure your happiness. I cherish every part of you cuz without you beside me I can't survive, don't want to try. If you're keeping me warm each and every night, I'll be alright, because I need you in my life. See I was so desolate before you came to me. Looking back, I guess it shows that we were destined to shine after the rain to appreciate the gift of what we have, and I'd go through it all over again to be able to feel this way.
For all the times that we, we ever wouldn't be. Look at us baby, look at us now. For everyday that I should have you by my side. We'll make it baby, look at us now. For every night I pray, I know that you will stay. Look at us baby, look at us now. Remembering the time our love was not so fine. We made it baby, look at us now. Baby look at us. Everybody believed we would never be, look at us up above. We are so in love. Everyday in your arms, baby can't go wrong. We are strong, look at us now. For every night I dream together you and me. Look at us baby, look at us now. You're like a flower bloom, the glowing of the moon. We'll make it baby, look at us now. For everyone believe that we could never be. Look at us baby, look at us now. Now all the hurt is gone, I knew it all along. We made it baby, look at us now. Baby look at us. For every night I dream, the more I do believe. Look at us baby, look at us now. All cleared up in the sky our love was meant tonight. We'll make it baby, look at us now. And all you ever do, I know you would be true. Look at us baby, look at us now. A story of a guy is one to never die. We'll make it baby, look at us now. Baby look at us.
Sitting here alone with only memories of the past. Just you and I and the wildest of our dreams. You held me close and whisper sweet words in my ear. How my heart just seems to beat when you say "hi". You give me love, that look in your eyes. You bring light into my life, you would always remain in my mind. There is only you in my heart, nothing's gonna change now. There is only you in my heart, now and forever more. Let us bring us to eternity, lets not live with only memories, cuz I know we hide our feelings, oh my love.
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today? If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way? If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call? If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all? I never know what the future brings, but I know you're here with me now. We'll make it through, and I hope you are the one I share my life with. ~I don't want to run away, but I can't take it, I don't understand. If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am? Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?~ If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed? If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head? If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life? If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my husband? I don't know why you're so far away, but I know that this much is true. We'll make it through, and I hope you are the one I share my life with. And I wish that you could be the one I die with. And I pray that you're the one I build my home with. I hope I love you all my life. I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away. And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today. Cuz I love you, whether it's wrong or right, and though I can't be with you tonight, know my heart is by your side.
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing. Watch you smile while you are sleeping, watch you're far away and dreaming. I could spend my life in this sweet surrender. I could stay lost in this moment forever, cuz every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure. ~I don't wanna close my eyes. I don't wanna fall asleep, cuz I'd miss you baby, and I don't wanna miss a thing. Cuz even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream would never do. I'd still miss you baby, and I don't wanna miss a thing~ Lying close to you, feeling your heart beating. And I'm wondering what you're dreaming, wondering if it's me you're seeing. Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together. And I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever, forever and ever. I don't wanna miss one smile. I don't wanna miss one kiss. I just wanna be with you right here with you, just like this. I just wanna hold you close, feel your heart so close to mine and just stay here in this moment for all the rest of time.
A hundred days have made me older since the last time that I saw your handsome face. A thousand lies have made me colder, and I don't think I can look at this the same. But all the miles have separate. They disappeared now when I'm dreaming of your face. ~I'm here without you baby, but you're still on my lonely mind. I think about you baby, and I dream about you all the time. I'm here without you baby, but you're still with me in my dreams. And tonight boy, it's only you and me~ The miles just keep rolling as the people leave their way to say hello. I've heard this life is overrated, but I hope it gets better as we go. Everything I know and anywhere I go, it gets hard but it won't take away my love. And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done, it gets hard but it won't take away my love.
I never understood how a heart could break until now
yea not much to say. tho I never believed this before, I guess I really dont know what I want. I want to be happy...but how to be happy is the hard part. I'm not depressed or anything. I still have so much fun with ppl and laughed and be happy these last few dayz, but when the ppl leave and the fun is no longer there, I'm lonely and sad again. itz amazing how u can feel alone in a crowd full of ppl. surprisingly walkin in the rain today was uplifting to me. ppl always blame rain when they get depressed but it makes me feel better. it only sucks when I'm in school cuz it makez me wanna fall alsleep so bad. I do my best thinking when itz rainin tho (life thinking, not school thinking lol). I was sad last nite but when I was up in my room, listenin to the rain let me know everything will be alright. yes after awhile everything will pass. I cant guarantee everything will be perfect again but at least I know I will be over this.
-meanness can really ruin a person's cuteness. I may seem like a shallow person whoz only worried bout looks but niceness can play a huge factor in me liking someone. we got signed seats in CST (no coincidence that I'm far away from where I used to sit) and I have to sit beside this guy whos so annoying. basically I cant stand him and he cant stand me. he knows what I hate most is ppl tapping so of course he has to do it most oftenly and loudly as possible. also he has to make fun and question everything I say, very irksome. his voice is so kuntry tho so I mimic him, which annoyz the hell out of him (my main purpose, not like I enjoy playin the child's game of repeatin what ppl say). I dunno what hit him tho but yesterday he pulled me aside after class and tell me "I dont mean to be mean to u or anything." I said suuure but he kept on rite at it. today he still bugged me but then he still tried to convince me that he thinks I'm a cool person and apologizes for being mean to me. itz weird how all a sudden hes all concerned bout what I think of him. I dunno, its kinda freakin me out how hes doin this all a sudden. Megan says maybe hes tryin to play that game like elementary school where the guy teases the girl he likes. lol ppl can crack me up nowadays. anywayz thanks to Michael, now almost all the guyz in CST is callin me the devil and satan. greattttt.
ah I was so out of it today. I know I'm out of it everyday but today was definitely my down day. my teachers couldnt seem to understand that tho. neither did the stupid guys in CST. I swear ppl cannot sit still these days without tappin on something. I used to do that too but if ur really that bored, just go to sleep and not ruining other pplz ears. I think I got enough sleep last nite but I was still so tired. I'm just blamin it that today was my down day.
-gym class is so friendly. basically our whole gym class wants to beat up this girl now. I didnt have a problem with her cuz she never done anything to me. I just snapped at her today cuz she was tellin other ppl they suck at hockey and was tryin to give them tips and crap. I dunno, its not really my business. usually I wouldnt say anything like other days but like i said, I was really tired today and when I'm tired, the slightest thing can make me all crabby and snappy. anywayz theres gonna be a fight soon. I can feel it.
~~~UPDATE~~~
so yea after thinkin bout it, i realized I was so sleepy cuz of the Aleeve I took for my sore legs. yea that was a very important update.
and it's over.. I'll never love another, I'm always thinkin of ya
that song was stuck in my head all day. yeaaa happy? its not that "there she goes" song (more like title) anymore. anywayz I cant believe no one have heard this song. itz not that old.. just 3 yearz back or so. nothing wrong with old songs tho. this one is really good and the video is so sad.
-where are all these azns poppin up from? therez a new azn girl at our school. I finally got the chance to talk to her today. I swear she could have been Viet but she say she was cambodian. its all good.
-lolz we played warball against the freshman again today. damn my legs are so sore tho, not from warball but from this intense exercise thing we did in gym like 2 dayz ago. stupid lunges. I'm too out of shape for this. I was the only one who ran today straight for 20 min but thats nothing. runnings not hard at all but those stupid push up and crap. Ms. Crockett actually suggested I should do track.. haha. anywayz, warball was fun. it got ugly but it was all fun. me, Sarah, and Kayla were the 3 idiots in the back jokin around and makin fun of ppl.. well not ppl, just "Butch". haha aka drag queen aka intimidator. "she" talked shit bout everybody tho and had the nerve to call me barbie (??? barbie, yea my hair is really blonde). anywayz gym is a very friendly class I tell ya.
Lil Mo- 21 Answers... too bad itz not all that great
Rocky Mount City, Franklin County {lolz not reallie but a lil improvising wouldnt hurt}
you are now rockin to the soundz of ur girl, Lil Mo'
you can't hate on me
cuz I just wanna chill and take a ride
shot gun in ur 7-45
oh baby you know I got ur back and I need to feel you next to me.
We got a baby and you know that I
won't have another man around your child.
Sometimes I really wanna cry cuz the love is so good.
Boy, if you really love me now,
Can we walk down the aisle?
cuz you know I'm gonna hold you down
cuz when you was down and out
I was still around
you gettin' money now, but I still got love for you.
If you fell off tomorrow you could stay at my crib
If you didn't smell so good I still would have ur kid
If you got locked up I'd put money on ur books
I'd marry you through congical visits and it'd be off the hook
You could still keep the hoopty if you couldn't cop a Benz
Boy I'd never dip out like some of ur friends
If the boys try to get you I'd be by ur side
Like Cleo from set it off yeah you know I'll ride
If you gotta peel a cap baby, do it papi
And if a chick wanna a piece of me I know you got me
You have to work at Mciedie's or Burger King I'd be there for you cuz I know we gotta eat
I ain't got too many friends, you know that baby
If you use ur tongue baby I'll behave
You know I don't drink cuz I wanna have ur baby
Cuz I'm ur girl and them other chicks is maybe
If you only knew how I feel
Boy you would know that my love is for real
21 answers to the questions you got
I'll always love you if you got money or not
gosh that wind today. whats with the sudden rain and "tornado"? I drove my sis to get some pizza and I parked and waited in the car while she went inside. all a sudden these huge wind started blowin and the car felt like it was gonna flip over. then it started raining big time and the car kept on sliding. I almost got a speeding ticket today...almost. the cop pulled me over on South Main Street cuz I was goin 40 at a 25 zone. I dont know what street he thought he was on, but I told him the sign said the speed limit was 35. so it took him 20 minutez to drive down the road to figure out the speed limit for that area. he came back and apologized and that was that. good thing he didnt caught me on Scuffling Hill Road when I was goin 60 at a 40 zone. so hard to not speed on a straight road.
-me, Chanh, .. and a lot of other ppl {too many to name} went to the *Eagle Cinema 5* on Friday nite. it looked so much like the Valley View Grande. u would think they would at least try to be original..like their name...haha cant stop makin jokes at that. anywayz Doree'z right, the lobby is still too plain, but I have a feelin that will change soon. then again, most of my feelings are proven wrong. I'm surprised at how big they made the inside tho. the screen was big also, just the picture was kinda blurry but itz aight. lolz u could tell they want us out there fast when the picture just clicked off rite when the movie ended. no bloopers?! how could that be?? haha, fun nite tho.
I heard that song tonite and yes its awesome. theres a Chinese version of that by Tension but its slower and not as good. that guy who raps it, Epiks, I love his voice. lol sound like another one of them Viet rapper but itz kute. the gurl who sings the chorus voice is really annoyin tho. thank god there's 3 verses of the guy rappin so it can drain out the girlz nasal voice.
-anywayz 1st place baby. so weird how when u least expect something, it happenz. yea I got 3rd place in that fbla competition last year and I did it again this year but for Word Processing 2, not 1. it was hard and I felt so horrible bout it. I thought I did worst than last year but get this, 1st place for regional. yup get to go compete for the state now. I'm just happy to make 1st for regional so if I lose state (most likely) itz aight. yea that 1st place pretty much makes my day.
-damnit lunch is shortened 5 min from now on. we already been warned that if the "misconduct" continues then we'll be punished like last year and have separate lunch periods. ugh that is the worst. anywayz hopefully it wont happen.
-lol itz funny how our school is so desparate to see a fight that if theres a rumor of one, ppl spread around that area and wait for it. even the administrators are close by with their sticks ready (not reallie but u know). ppl wait the whole lunch period and say "it'll happen soon" and thennnn nothing happens. lol. they say they're gonna fight today after school at Hardees. *they* as in the blacks and the rednecks. haha itz like a movie and they're building up to the climax, but watch it be a crappy movie. before u know it, they're gonna start sellin tickets for this thing. well when the big circle of black and white fighting, I should jump in and yell Azn pride..then run *_~.
-I love ppl like Maggie who are up to anything and alwayz ready to have fun. she wantz to go hang out this Friday so bad but shez grounded sooo she told me to call her house and convince her dad to let her go. I thought she was jokin but she gave me her home number and everything. I would call but it be kinda weird to call up some dad I dont know and ask can his daughter come hang out on Friday. hmm yea I could use the excuse I'm her long lost sister from Korea, lolz. I dunno, if that dont work then therez alwayz next time.
yea that song'z been stuck in my head for two days...which is a long time for something to be stuck in my head. its one of those songs that ppl only pay attention to the chorus and never know how the rest of the song goes. I looked up in the lyric in CST today (stupid stupid class) but I only care enough to sing the title..over and over.
-I hate school so much now. its not the classes I hate...its the subjects I have. they're all so boring. I'm praying Biology will get more interesting and less hard. I have the highest grade in that class and I have no clue how cuz I hate it so much. CST...blah. its too late to change class now so I guess I'm stuck with Clements and her run down computers for the rest of the semester. there is so many tests for an elective class. I sleep through Ms. Clementz lecture, even tho I shouldnt cuz I've been doin so crappy on her tests. I could be positive and shit and say this is a fun, awesome class but the only thing I could actually like is taking apart the computer, which gets old after doing it a million times. well maybe after the 1st half of these classes are over with, it wont be so bad anymore. if not, least the wait for the classes to end wont be so long then.
-lol Quantez..so whipped. Jessica'z actually gonna try to deny it and say she dont train him when everywhere she goes, he runs (literally run) along. of course since Quantez is whipped, Corey gotta be whipped also and follow Quantez around. I went to get something to eat with Jessica today and I realized for the first time how she has a posse everywhere she goes. yup so whipped.
-an hour and a half down south from where we are right now (or least where I am right now, I dont know where the hell you are), Linkin Park is playing in Greensboro, NC. Thao, on the other hand, get to listen to bluegrass music (more like being forced by the community) through her bedroom window all night long...wooo. I'm tellin ya, thingz u get for free usually suck. well maybe if I'm lucky, I'll get to see LP in my dream tonight. damn you Michelle. I hate it when my dreams come true for other people.
-yeaaaa paid today. $300 this week, shopping time. it makes me so sad to see ppl fighting to get jobs at that new movie theater when they pay you way below minimum wage. well yea my sadness is over. suckers gotta learn sometime *_~.
Hold on if you feel like letting go. Hold on it gets better than you know.
-hehe is this addictive or what. I'm at someone'z house but I'm still getting online to write in this thing. well the boyz are being stupid and playin paintball in the freezin cold. yea I dont smoke so I guess I dont have that extra warmth in my body.
-school was let out 4 hours early today cuz of the "snow". I guess that must have been real early cuz everyone freaked out bout the 4 hours. I was in math at 9 when Mr. Gibson came on the intercom and announced it. I noticed it was really cold and the sky looked like it would snow, but I didnt think they would announce it that early. plus, we got out at 11:20, not bad, not sure why but not bad.
-Ti sucks...so bad. my sis agreed to give her a ride home after school today but before we went out, I had to go to Tech A to get my teacher'z recommendation sheet. she was followin me..lolz to think of it, she couldnt even catch up and I was just walkin really fast. haha how u gonna do track then Ti? well she was complainin so I told her go back and tell my sis to wait for awhile. I didnt think she went back tho so I thought she was still followin me. once I got my recommendation, I couldnt find her anywhere. I thought she was in Tech A somewhere so I ran upstair and downstair lookin for that girl. I was freakin out for a moment cuz I thought I lost Ti...I was freakin out more cuz I thought I was goin crazy for losing a 17 year old girl. didnt know what to do. I felt bad about leavin cuz she might still be in Tech A somewhere and be stuck at the school (of all places to be stuck right). well yea moment of sadness as I walked away. then I got over it and stopped to talk to Melissa and then Megan. when I headed towardz my sis car who do u kno but Ti came out. so she went back to my sis car. dummie, made me freaked out and got worry for nuttin.
-that new korean guy..wow. lolz. kinda ironic his name is Anthony. awwz Anthony, miss that bastard so much. anywayz Maggie and Anthony sure did clicked pretty well *wink wink*. well yea enough about them and him...but Anthony...wow.
-I'm actually excited for this spring fling dance thing comin up, even if its in April, a month or so away. least its casual wear, which I'll define as jeans. ~aightz party party party.
-yea schoolz gettin bettter...boring as hell but not as stressful. mid termz tomorrow tho..ah well just give me good grades and I'll be aight. wow itz 6:15 rite now and therez still light outside. thats a first in a long time. Spring will be here soon!! thatz the onlie thing that gives me comfort to get through these cold weather. I dunno, I think the cold weather has been here so long that I'm used to it now. I dont freeze as much in the same 30-40 degreez weather as I did in December. least they're sunny school dayz tho.
-I'm so absent-minded and I hate it. I really need to be organized..like bout where I put stuff. keep on forgettin where I put stuff...yea I had a point somewhere but I forgot it. anywayz I "misplaced" my calculator and gym locker today. I dunno why I said that but its a nice way to sum this up.
-we played frisbee in gym. I never knew there was another game that involved frisbee except throwing it back and forth and tryin to cut the other person's neck off. of course, this is gym tho and the gym teachers are basically paid to invent games and sit and watch us get fit while they munch on Bojangles. the game was fun..once I got the gist of it. kinda like football..but got so confusing with the teams heading in different direction. once I finally got used to the game and was into it, time was up and we stopped playing.
-its nice to be taking a break from everything. no bf obligations, no friends obligations, nothing. I dont like being tied down and I felt I was too tied down this week. hence, the freaking out and bitchness came in. things are all better now tho. like I said, just need a break, rest, and sleep..yea damn I need sleep. haha aight Imma stop sayin that cuz I kno everyone I've complained to is sick of hearin it, including me. anywayz Imma try to get some more sleep while yall go on and try to get a life and stop readin my journal *_~.
-aightz, time to meet up with blondie to work on biology project..woo hoo, highlight of my day. I have a feelin we're not gonna get much done so I might as well find someone to get the chicken pox and be sick enough to not present this crap. well party tomorrow tho, woo hoo (haha no sarcasm that time...well just a lil bit). itz gonna be wild tho, as long as no police show up. I swear police must have some kind of trackin system that tracks down every party I go to. well if this party get busted, Imma have to stop goin to these things...or kill the police, either one.
yea finally updating. alot has happened in the last...5 days? all good stuff tho, thank goodness. last thing I need rite now is more crap. haha life'z not that bad tho. okay now I'm just rambling on. so tired from school. yea it has that affect on people. anywayz I best get goin, dinner then go out in a few minutes. latez yall young'nz *_~.
