itz strange how u dont notice ppl who are before your very eyes. u never realize how special they are to u, or would be to u, cuz u never really gave them a chance. here I have been, stressing out over something far away when whats good for me was in front of me all along. I dont want to be clichéd and say I'm still young so I should date around and see whats out there. it is possible to find *the one* now and be with them the rest of ur life (ahem Siran *_~). I guess I got caught up in the love and had my mind set on he is the only one for me and I'm not interested in anyone else. well not until I gave another person another chance did I realize I was so wrong. ironically right now I am at my happiest than I have ever been in the last 2 months.
-itz so great to have that feeling again of having a crush, wondering if he likes u (or still likes u in this case), and then that great moment when it comes out that u both like each other (happy ending, thank goodness). this, I must say, is one of the greatest feeling in the world. its so middle-schoolish but so kute. hard to believe but last time I went through this was last year so its great to relive the experience, only with a different person. I really didnt expect myself to fall for him, but I find that the more I hang with him, the more I like him. maybe its bad of me to get over someone so quick but there really is no point in moping around. as long as it makes me happy, which I am very much of. its so corny but every morning when I wake up, I cant help but smile cuz I know I'll see him that day. yea, school actually has a purpose now, haha. every night we talk for bout 2 to 3 hours, something I've never done with any of my bfs before. yetttt, hes not my bf...
-so yes, the question thats been asked a lot lately. no...we are not going out. will we? I don't know. I like how things are now, light and not too serious. we have the committment but its not said. I just want something physical right now, not emotionally...lol jk...hehe. he'll be graduating soon so I just want to make the best of the month and a half we have left. I know we're both busy this summer so I just wanna worry bout right now, even tho theres no worries in this "relationship", only smiles *_*.